brain juices
sumtimes. i juz feel numb.its like u've experienced so much drama mama unhappiness in ur life.
so much so.
tht u forget wad its like to b upset.
and the only thing u feel is complete numbness n nonchalence.
ok, mayb not complete numbness since i still am feeling the lil pricks of wads going on in my life.
but sumhow i cant bring myself to be upset.
im more of numb.
with questions of wads-all-this-about raging in my head relentlessly.
(to qi: im emo, seriously. and i know u r in love with tht dark mysterious side of me. hur hur)
i guess the fortune tellers right bout me wanting stability.
caue sumhow or other i seem to b living my life for tht.
i shld juz get a vespa.
uni life is gonna b interesting.
i cant seem to socialise for nuts.
mayb i can do it for cinnamon powdered doughnuts.
o lord why din i hav a twin.
mayb she cld share my inferiority complex.
so i wld only feel half of how im feeling.
and she would always be there.
like ALWAYS.
henyuan's loathing of self righteous ppl part is terribly funny.
and terribly 'i-do-it-too-but-i-dun-want-admit-cannot-ah-want-fight-isit'
im sorry if i push everyone away.
i swear im nice cheery n fun to b with at times.
its kinda like feeling inadequate to b loved.
like ure not unique enuff.
not special enuff.
blah blah.
i think i need a shrink.
or mayb i need daily injections of endorphins.
ok,
so ive spent like 1000 on shopping.
i guess i havta leave my cards at home.
i hope
i stand
i take it like a man
i try as hard as i can
am i not pretty enough
is my heart too broken
do i cry too much
am i too outspoken
dont i make u laugh
shld i try it harder
why do u see right thru me
why do u see
why do u see
why do u see right thru me
on a tryin to b happier note.
i think the image of myself ridin a vespa on the road is pretty amusing.
o windsurfin shld b funny too.
o ya.
n the magazines i bought frm taiwan are tons more entertaining than s'pore magazines.
theey hav such pretty clothes.........
hur.
o ya.
viking was fun. like really fun.
i love the itchy butterflies in ur tummy feeling.
makes me laugh.
